It's Time to Come Out of the Mist.

I woke up the last two days feel a little strange. Yesterday I woke up a feeling a bit empowered. I always get the "Christmas Blues" right after Christmas but the night before I had a dream. Facing my fear of an early death. The resolution came when I saw myself older and still alive. The thing is emotionally, I was in the same place I was now. Spending all this time I have left worrying about the time I have left and not focusing that energy on taking advantage of that time and making it the most I can. I also dreamed of spirits and wondering why they seem to revisit a particular place. I didn't even know I was question it, but I woke up fully understanding. Though now, looking hindsight, since there is no time in that place, time stands still, no moving forward or backwards. And I feel they may be trying to tell me something. But I felt strong though, like something was resolved, but not quite sure what.

This morning I woke up telling myself to go for my psychology degree. I have been seriously thinking about going back to school, but to be honest, even with online school, my current work schedule is so messed up that there is no real point to even making plans. I also thought about my job now. I have been doing this going on 8 years, 8 YEARS!! and the best I can get is making $10 an hour. I promoted once and moved and was unable to find an open position, but now it's all about who you know and not what you know. The one's I know who have the "power" I'm not close to. I'm not a brown noser, and I would much rather be chosen due to my skills, not my ability to be someone's personal doormat.

I know things need to change and I know that the direction I'm going in is not the direction I'm supposed to be. It's time to seriously take some inventory of my life and be clear about the direction I want to go. I have something that I can use and I'm not using it. I'm not asking, not seriously, for help. I'm looking for something tangible. I have to many many people who depend on me financially and it's holding me back spiritually. I'm superwoman to my family, but it's not enough. I have to balance, no I have to merge both but I'm still not sure how to do it yet.

I also woke up feeling I need to take my spirituality more seriously. I have lost the sacredness of it. It's time to seriously build and capitalize on this energy, especially with the full moon coming, use that energy as a serious energy boost to launch this petition out there.

December Energy

I have tried to study the moon phases for many years. I often read the typical correspondents associated with different phases and realized that I haven't really spent alot of time discovering what the moon phases mean to me. I often find that the moon phases come and go and I am still trying to figure out how to harness the power, with little to no results. The reason why is because it holds no meaning to me. Sure, I feel the power, but a without specific intention, that power is nothing more then wasted energy. But in order to have a specific intention, I need to feel that energy. I need more then a simple common explanation.  I need to understand what it means to me, and that is the purpose of this blog.

The Dark Moon in December is upon us and I can feel the cloak of darkness around the earth. I think back to the Native Americans when smaller tribes used the darkness to hide themselves from their enemies, protecting them in her shadow. So I find a strong protective energy around her. This would be a great time to use the charged stones and use them for protection around the home, cars, or personal protection.

The darkness is also mysterious. The darkness holds all that is hidden and unknown. If you walk into a dark room, you can not rely on your own eyes to see, for it is to dark, so you are required to use your intuition to guide you through the room. So this energy also feels to be great time to enhance psychic abilities and intuition. Couple that with this month's Wolf Moon which the wolf is symbolic for intuition, This month's dark moon feel like a very powerful time to draw in some serious psychic energy!

In the dark, we are more desperately seeking light. And when we see it, we are naturally drawn to it. If we walk in a dark room and someone opens the door, our first instinct is to walk towards the door where the light is shining in. (under normal circumstances,of course). In fact, if the room is  pitch black, we are more likely to run to it! It's no different for lost souls. 

This combination of  intuition/psychic senses, protection, and heightened desire for the light  is the perfect combination for spirit crossing! I used to think the full moon would be a good time to guide them since it was so bright, but a tiny candles shines more brightly in the darkest room, then a candle lit with the lights on. This makes sense on why I felt more drawn to do it on the dark moon.


This again is the Wolf Moon and I feel drawn to connect with the energy of the wolf. I know some recognize it more in January but that's the beauty of being a Mystic, you don't follow what others say, but heighten on the energy you feel around you. And I feel the Wolf's energy strong this month. The instinct,intuition, survival, strength, knowledge, wisdom,preparation. The cold days are upon us and each of these are essential to the survive the lean months ahead. 

This month is a very powerful month. I need to capitalize on it while it is still here. The energy always seem to run high and then when January comes, it's like that energy is gone. I need to use that energy to prepare the way of the upcoming year. This will be my focus for the full moon this month.

I feel like I have alot of spiritual work to do this month. I feel like I also have to prepare.

Signs

It's been a really busy week at work and with  my days off preparing and celebrating Thanksgiving, and black Friday starting on the actual Thanksgiving, it's no wonder I had the dream I had last night. When I went to bed, I began to dream of work, which I always do, but then it started changing and I dreamt of doing readings. Most of the dream was vague and random until I was standing in a room and I felt a presence. I kept saying it was a man with dark hair and wearing green. I must have said it like three times. I didn't like the feel of the entity, negative, but not in a lost soul way.  It was hiding and I don't really deal with spirits that try to  hide The others in the room looked a little skeptical until the cat started hissing and growling. I immediately banished it, and it left and the dream became vague again. 

It's been awhile since I've had a spirit dream. I don't really know what he wanted, I just know it wasn't to be crossed over. The feeling I have now feels like a an entity that was passing through. I'm been thinking alot lately, especially on a more sub-conscious level about needing to start practicing again. I feel so out of the touch with the psychic world. I know it's my job. I took a four day weekend a few months ago and after day three, I started feeling so grounded and clear. But then I had to work 10 days straight afterwards and it put me back right where I am now. I have been looking for another job, but most of them, I will be taking a pay cut and I can't afford to do that. I can't even afford the job I have now. It's like a never ending cycle.

My dream was the third of three signs that I need a change. The second sign came two days ago when I was cooking. It was nice because the house was so peaceful and calm. The kids were happy, everyone was happy at that moment. I looked out the kitchen and three doves landed in our back yard. Sometimes we get birds that come in looking for food and quickly leave, but this one struck me as odd because they were walking in a row and then stopped and look right at me. They lingered for awhile until my husband opened the back door to feed them some bread, but they took off and that was the last I saw off them.

The first sign was about a week ago and there was a humming bird in the back yard. Now keep in mind, our backyard is all gravel and we have no plants, trees or grass back there. I was sitting in our bedroom with the window open and a hummingbird came right up and looked through the window in front of me. I stayed there for about a minute and then flew off. It was strange, and enough to grab my attention for a short time, but I have a hard time reading birds. It's funny because I am the most connected to them, and I know they come to bring a message, but I don't know what the message if. I try to use the symbols for them on-line but they just don't fit.I'm now hearing the song "The Voice" by the Celtic Women. I know I'm being called to make some changes and I have been asking for direction and guidance but I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I think I'll try to pull a couple of cards now that it is quiet for a moment.

I asked for Angelic assistance and all 4 cards flew out at me.

Ice Queen, it's where I am now, dormant and frozen in the moment.

High Lord of Gratitude and Service- Because of my dormant state I have lost my passion to serve.

Gaia's Graden- this one is easy, it's talking about my job, which is keeping me in my dormant state. I stay because of the money, though the job holds no more joy for me. It weighs on me so heavy, it's blocking me and keeping me in my present state.

Spirit Whisperer- this is who i am, who I desire to be again, more in touch. I hear the call, but to much stress from work, I stay dormant. My soul desires to flourish back into it's natural state, but yet I am frozen in this current state.

The Eagle King- Angelic Help is the thing that stuck out at me. Not just asking but trusting. And since the interpretation of the cards came as quickly as a glance, this is yet another sign to ask for help. The birds are a symbol of the heavens and higher realms. They know what I struggle with and are telling me to ask and to trust, it's the whole free-will thing :)

So this will be my focus for the next couple of days, asking for help and blind faith.

A Winter's Dream

Even in the visions, I see you. I look at a picture and there you are. It doesn't matter what the picture is or what is painted, you still show yourself to me.

I walk along a lonely path in between the snow covered trees towards a destiny unknown. This familiar path I walk again foreign once again. As the snow continues to lightly fall, I continue to tred forward. Step by step. Though my feet tire, my souls pushes me forward. What is this place I long for yet have never seen, yet seen time and time again? I am always here, yet it's unknown where the path will lead this time.

I cross the frozen river and continue onward when I see you up ahead. You are there, yet I am the only one who can see you. You have died, yet you continue to live that last moment. Next to you she appears shining in all her glory. She has come to take you away, yet you do not leave. Not yet. Instead, you wait. I ask, are you waiting for me? He say's come. I am stuck. I am trapped. I desire to go yet I do not know why. I do not understand what pulls me to the light. I do not understand what makes me stay here in this moment. The woman enchants me and beckons me to follow, but I can't move. I have no answers, just a million questions. I don't understand. Can you help me?

I know no more then you, I respond. It's not something that can be told, it is something that can only be felt. It is mysterious, just as the road ahead of me is. I do not know where it will take me, all I know is that I must follow. I do not know the dangers that lie ahead, nor do I know the treasure. All I know is that this path calls to me and I must follow. It has called to me since I was small. It has been my guide all of these years. It has taken me to so many places. It has pulled me through the veil of many worlds that I would have not otherwise would have known was there. I have experienced life and death all at once. I can't tell you how it feels for there are no words to describe it. I can only show you for it must be seen through the eyes of innocence. It's a voice you hear in the wind. A pulling you feel in the depths of your soul. It's mysterious, it's magical and beyond the unknown, all is known. It's not answers in our mind, you just know that the call is for you. In this place where everything is still, is where you hear the call.

I hold out of my hand. I will show you my world. You already have he says to me. It is in the energy you give. I remember feeling this when I was young. It has guided me. When I stopped believing, it reminded me. But I didn't listen. I stopped believing. I became afraid of it. But what is it? What is it that calls us?  It's not important, is it?

The call is important, but why it calls is not.

When we understand why, we often loose the mystery of it and we stop hearing it. We stop believing in it because we start to rationalize it and many times that knowledge leads to only more confusion. I have sought knowledge and have gained knowledge, but I have lost my ability to believe. When I lost my belief, the knowledge no longer meant anything to me because it lost the mystery. When I followed the call, I followed with my soul. I knew nothing other then it was what I was supposed to do and it gave it purpose. It was pure and naive, it was innocent, based on pure trust. It didn't matter not knowing the answers, I knew all I needed to know and I knew that anything else I needed to know, I would learn along the way. That is why I am on this path now. It is a journey I know I must take. A journey without reason or thought. A journey without knowledge but not without purpose. I walk the path of the soul where intuition is my guide. Fate is my map, destiny my compass, a journey of knowing that anything and everything is possible. You have no idea where that woman will take you, but in the deepest part of your soul, you know you must follow. It's not because I tell you that you must go, it's because you already know, you hear the call, you feel the pull and it is stronger then any desire for knowledge you ever had because you already know it's for you. Just as you know that light. Do you trust the call? Can you trust her?

I can see the veil. I can see beyond her, where she is taking me and it's so beautiful. It's for me? Do I deserve it?

It's not about what anyone deserves, but it calls you still, and it is there for you. The question isn't whether or not you deserve it, the question is whether or not you are follow the call.

The longer I look at it, the harder it pulls. I no longer desire it or afraid of it, I yearn for it. Shimmering and so bright. I did nothing to earn it, yet it calls to me still. It draws me in and there is no resisting it. I don't want to resist it. I want it to consume me. I want to walk through it and to be a part of it. I need to go. Everything is falling away, I see nothing other then the light. I must go now. Thank you.

I see the rope fall away from his throat and he walks into the light. The veil closes and he is gone. The woman smiles at me. You have done well, my child ,she says. She is not an angel as I thought, she is a Goddess. Humanity is your gift. You hold the key and open the door through the veils. You understand them because you understand yourself. He has been here a long time. Trapped in a time and place that no longer exsists, though you found him. Are you beginning to understand now how important you are? Each human was blessed with a special gift, including you. It calls to you, do not deny the call, it is your destiny.

psychic children

I'm been trying to finish a meditation for about a week now. I visualize myself walking under the full moon in a snow covered field that borders a dense forest. I can hear the ice crunching under my feet. I can hear the deafening silence that comes with the snow falling and I can feel the wetness on my face. As I walk I reach an ice covered lake and I sit...waiting. As images start to emerge, I get interrupted and I can't seem to finish the meditation. It's normally due to life situations but I can't help to feel that something more is blocking this particular one. Yet I feel the pull to complete it. We have been having some paranormal activity in our backyard over the last couple of weeks. The lastest was this morning when our dog was laying on the bed and out of the blue, turned his head to the backyard and started growling. He was so freaked out that the hair on his back stood straight up. He just kept growling and I could see the fear in his eyes. He's a protective dog so normally he goes right to the source, but today he kept backing away. We went to the window and saw nothing. So my husband goes out into the yard and normally the dog follows to make sure everything is ok, but today he didn't even want to go outside. We got him out there for a second and stayed by the wall and then ran back in. This is totally not him.
It's not uncommon for us to get spiritual activity but this one really scared him. I think it's important to finish this meditation and later to cleanse the backyard so I'm going to try and do it through writing it. I was going to start again and once again I was interrupted. I found myself getting a little irritated until my daughter sat down and started telling me about her psychic abilities. I always knew she was highly psychic but it's very difficult to talk to a child about their abilities because no matter how simple you try to explain it, it's a very complex thing. I taught her a few techniques but never really worked with any of them on it. After today, I realized that she is no longer a child, and neither is my son and they have such amazing gifts to share with the world, it's time. It's time to show them what they can really do. It's time to teach them to control it and not have it control them. I'm finding a new direction to take my own abilities in and it has given me a new motivation on where to channel that energy. These abilities are a gift, not for us, but given to us to share with the rest of the world and it's time to start showing them how to do that. If they don't learn from me, they will learn on their own, and I always wished I had someone when I was young to tell me, to show me.
I have decided to start working on an exercise for them once a week, one's that are more tailor made towards each one's gifts.
I also realized that pushing my own gifts aside, it still doesn't change who I am. It will always come and it will continue to come for my kids. It is who we are, and they will continue to grow in it, with or without me. I want it to be with me. I want to be their teacher, their mentor. I want to be the one who show's them. We need to be the one's who teach them. My daughter's abilities mirror my own with the exception of the weather. She's see's the mystical and magickal everywhere, as I once did.  And my son has his dad's healing abilities. The kid is quite amazing. I hurt my arm about 5 years back and he put his hands on me. He did this saw motion thing like he was cutting away the pain, and when he was done, I had no more pain. So yeah, it's time for them to learn to tap into their own power and I am the one who is blessed enough to show them. It makes it easier knowing that all my struggles with my own gifts as a child is what gave me the knowledge I have on it today and will allow me to teach them in ways that noone else can. What a blessing our children are.

6 Month Reading

I was trying to do a reading for the next 12 months. I started the reading yesterday and now the cards have shifted. Something changed, though I am not sure what or why. The only thing that remains the same is the totem animal over the year which is the phoenix, which, ironically we live in as well.

What shifted the reading from yesterday is the hungry ghosts card. Today started the first day of the new year and the energy is completely different then yesterday. Today my husband found out about his job, which he didn't get. The wedding is also stressful, which my mother is actually most of the stress. I've not sure how to handle the situation. I know things are going to shift once again as the turn of the wheel begins to turn into a new cycle. This card is warning of stress and if I don't take control of it now, it will be the theme for the year. The energy will continue to build and consume.

Novemeber - The Eyes of Beauty
This card was thrown at me and it is the card of seeing the beauty of all things. It is a stregnth card reminding me to see the positive and to believe. Belief is something I have struggled with, yet it is the key that will move us into a new cycle, the one we are meant to be in. As things continue to build, I am also reminded to take the time to slow down and enjoy the blessings that we have now. I am to be at peace and to retreat into that inner stillness to regroup and focus my energies on the things we need manifested.

Decemeber-  The Lady of the Mirror
I am told that things will continue as planned, even without the extra money we were anticipating. As winter draws near, I am being asked to look within, beyond the here and now, but further in the future. This is where the seeds are sown. I am told not to give up. Energy will continue to build and to decide what to focus that energy on. I am also asked to not hold on to anger. To remind me that superficial things are not worth holding on to . This energy should be used as a time of celebration and I am reminded to use it as such. For any use could harm later on. I am to remember who I am and where I came from. I come from a long line of Mystics, and I need to take the time to remember who I am .

January- The Dream Walker and the Alter priestess
The energy begins to slow as winter is here and all is in hibernation.  This is usually a dark time for me and this year will be no different, but I am take stock of the changes that have occurred and will occur later on in the year. Now is the time to plan and sow the seeds for spring. Though most of the energy will be focused on the wedding again, I need to start really preparing for our future. It's time to send the message out to the universe of what we need. This is a great time for magick, for though the energy is still, the imagination is active. I will also be ahead of schedule on something. This feels like a time of magickal connection. A change in career is near. This is a high time for spiritual things and I am called to embrace it.

February- The River Queen
Emotions will be running very high this month. Love is the theme for this month, all love and I will be asked to love even if I don't want to. These feels more in regards to my mother. I need to stay focused on our vision and to allow the energy of love to flow through. Energy starts to build again towards the middle to the end of the month. I need to again harness this energy and direct it into what needs to be done. Water rules this month, and though emotions are high, so is the calmness and healing the river and lakes bring. Towards the end of the month, things become restless, awaiting the arrival of spring.

March- The Shadow Queen/ The prison waif
This month brings with it alot of tension. This is were all the stops are pulled between me and my mother and this is where the truth will be told. I will be tempted to throw everything away. Alot of people will be whispering in my ear, but I need to stick true to what is in my heart, everyone else will file suite when the time comes. Don't loose sight on why you are doing it, remember who it really is for. There will be some conflict about money and possibly a change in careers. Stick with your goals and do not waver. Stay on budget and you will be just fine.

April- keeper of the scales/ the lady of the gift
In the beginning of the month, energy will be buzzing and scattered. Make sure you are grounding yourself often. I was just told that Easter was during that time and sure enough, it is the following day. I just checked. I knew there was something wrong with that date. Maybe this is the reason I couldn't get past the 6th month. I would have been so busy. I don't want Easter the day after. That would take away from it for the kids and cooking two days in a row?? that would really suck. I don't know what I was thinking. I was thinking that I wanted my mother's birthday week to be her own so she wouldn't have to share it with anyone. ok, i need to rethink this whole thing. I think I have a plan. This may change my entire reading as this new info might change everything.Luckily it's a small wedding and I'm good with pressure. He's going to love this idea. I'll keep you posted.

Eva's Story (Spirit Crossing)

Sometimes life takes us in directions that we would normally have gone ourselves. Sometimes it's fate, sometimes it's just the laws of nature, and sometimes it's unexplainable. The veil between the dead and the living are thinning as we near closer to Samhain. I know this is why the female has come to me. I can hear them more clearly right now, though they don't feel lost, simply needing to be heard, the exsistance recognized. When noone speaks to you or ignores you, slowly you begin to disappear, the soul just fades away.

I have been asking for signs for my natural life, the earthly realm, yet most of the signs point back to the spiritual and what I am called to do. Below are the cards I am pulling for today. I have no particular question or direction to go, I know my souls calls out what it is I desire to know and know I will be answered accordingly.

Hmm, I see a small room and a piano as I listen to my music. I'm not channeling my own memories but that of someone else. It feels peaceful, calm, like a release of the soul. She used to play piano. I can see her, young, content, sadness mixed with happiness. She walks the veil that separates the two. So easily to fall to one side or the other. But at the moment, the veil almost disappears and all are one. I am drawn to what it is that made her lost and I hear "isolation".
 "It's not a full life, it's a fulfilling one that matters. You can fill it up with the riches, the finest things in the world, you can be surrounded by a million people and still be all alone. In my world I am free, but the cost is high. You desire what I desired and it brought me here, the path I walk now. I walked in my world and as the sun went down it got dark. The darker it got, the further I walked. The further I walked, the more lost I became. Soon my sanctuary became my hell and the darkness consumed me. Nothing bad happened, some call it a flaw in the soul. I wanted for nothing on that physical realm, yet I had nothing. My soul longed to be free and by seeking that freedom I became chained, bound by a reality that others could not see. I walked willingly, happily, but then the darkness came. I didn't understand where it came from. Out of nowhere it came. I searched for the moon, but can find no light. I searched for the day but dawn never arrived. Now I weep every day. I desired to be alone and found loneliness. I was loved and I loved back, with all my heart, yet darkness still came. I don't understand this, and I know you seek the same answers as I. You walk the veil between realities, as did I, how did this happen? How does a soul filled with so much light become so lost? " the spirit asks.
I don't know, is all I can say. All I can say is the somewhere along the way the dreams died and the world that was created disappeared. Close your eyes and listen. Can you hear the music? You did not see the music, your heard it and felt it. You became one with it. It wasn't something that came from this world, it is something that came from within. It wasn't the reality that you created in your world that made you become lost, it was when the music changed is when your reality changed. Think back to when the music changed, for the music is a reflection of your soul.
I can see her closing her eyes. "
It became slower, sadder. I lost my mother and then my husband. Soon my children began to leave, moved away and I was all alone. All I had left was my music. A got arthritis and I wasn't able to play. My heart was so heavy, it hurt to play because it reminded me of the happy times. I would Christmas songs during the holidays and everyone would gather around the piano and we would sing together. This was the happiest times of my life. But when everyone left, my soul began to die and all I had left was my music, but it wasn't the same. I tried to play but it wouldn't come out the same. I just wanted to die. Then one day, something changed. Charlie came to visit me in my sleep. He said I was my most beautiful when I played for him. I radiated, I glowed which made me want to play more. I woke up with a new outlook, like my soul was revived. So I got up, sat up straight on my bench, ready to play . I held my fingers up and curled them and they began to hurt. But nothing was going to stop me, so through the pain, i played, and it sounded like a child banging on the keys for the first time. For a child, it is music to a mothers ears, for a someone who has played all their life, it was loud, annoying, clatter. And I sat there, and my heart sank. I couldn't do it. Charlie wanted so bad for me to play and I could still feel him there waiting, and then this happened. Charlie left that day and never came back and I know it's my fault. I spent the rest of my time just sitting in my chair. Things began to get dark. I went to sleep one night and I have been here since. All he asked for was one song. Just one song and I couldn't do it and he left and I haven't felt him since. And it's all because I failed him."

Close your eyes, I say. Can you hear the music?

No. It's no use, the music is gone.

I close my eyes and hear the music the song is playing. I allow the music to fill me. Listen closely I tell her. Can you hear it now?

I can hear it, it's almost hypnotizing. Where is it coming from?

"Follow it" I tell her.

"Things are getting lighter. This is the place I last saw. The sun rising from behind the mountain. The meadow. The music is getting louder. Is that Charlie? That man ahead, is that my Charlie?" 

I can see them running towards each other. They embrace and disappear.

wow! I remembering for a short moment, which I do alot is a feeling of this being unreal. But I pulled an Angel Card and got the Victory card. I also feel a sense of lightness. I can also feel "heaven", I can feel that light energy, I feel stregnth, power, love. It's a pretty amazing feeling. So why do souls get lost? I think it's because for whatever they are going through, they won't allow their souls to be free enough to let go. When desire becomes stronger then our current emotion, that is when things begin to change.

This wasn't what I expected for a blog, but then again, it usually never is. This is my world, the world of a Medium.

Writing Meditation.

I hear your call
I feel you drawing me to you
I see the veil
but my steps are frozen
On the threshold I remain
I must let go, this I know
I remember that sacred place
but cannot find it

What happened to the sacred?
What happened to the old ways?
The mysteries of old are now lost
swallowed up by the here and now
Are they forever gone?
That sacred place no longer exsist
only within our hearts

Look beyond the veil, what do you see?
I see the beauty of magic and mystical all around me.
I see all things are possible.
So what is it that keeps you at the veil?
disbelief.
All that is hidden is now before me
All that is lost is now found
It is alive.

It is your to take hold
walk gently for the land is fragile
this world is your own what will you do with it?
I just want to bask I want to stay in this moment
and absorb the energy all around me
I want this hidden yet I want it manifested
Would it become any more real if it were right before you?
I would feel at home.
I'm not from here am I?

In this place I am alone and though I welcome the solitude
I don't want to always be alone.

I'm not living my purpose
inaction has damaged my soul.
Disbelief has caused my inaction.

It's time to make a change
it's time to bring my world to this world
It's time open the veil

Storm Candles

Storm Candles:
Storm candles are candles that are charged by storms. It's quite easy. Find a  place outside, a table, a
 patio or something and lay them out before the storm comes. Cast the spell below and you have storm candles. The purpose of this candle is to increase the magically energy of the candle. So if you use it for prosperity, the storm energy already charged will increase the power of the spell. This can also be used for storm water. Just leave a jar outside to catch the water, say the spell and add it or use it on your tools to increase the energy of the spell. There is alot of power in this energy so use it sparenley!

rain and thunder with fire of sky
charge these sacred candles of mine
add your energy to these tools
increase the power when in use
With harm to none
This spell is done
So Mote it Be!

For Hannah Anderson

Orb of light from above
Shine your light in the form of a dove
Show the path, guide their way 
to find the girl who is away.

Orb of light. shine now bright
End thee now this horrific night
step by step, now closer to
(name of missing) bring them to you.

The missing and the searchers, paths now meet
to bring you home alive, safe and  peacefully.

Keep her safe and free from harm
With Divine light and  protection this spell is done.  

For all the Mystics who would like to join in, please send your thoughts,  prayers, intuitive insight or any other form of power you have to bring Hannah Anderson home!!

The Stir

   I've been feeling the stir within. I always feel so tired yet my souls yearns to awake. It's been quite busy lately so my energies have been geared towards "reality". I'm not really keen on my reality right now. It's difficult to see beyond the veil. I see the desert that surrounds me, and though I find beauty in the sunsets and at night, I realize that with our financial situation, it's almost impossible to do what it is my heart truly desires, and that's to simply be in nature. It's to hot, it's to cold, it's to dead, to brown, it costs to much money. Everything in life that can be enjoyed costs money. I really don't see where people have the right to claim something that was here billions of years ago, but that's another blog. I feel like I'm sleeping and my soul longs to be awake. My soul has been stirring for quite some time, but today it is undeniably strong.
    I took some time this morning and pulled some cards from my Wisdom of the Hidden Realms deck and pulled the cycle of seasons card. I reflected on it for a short time and I realized that I have been trying to connect with the seasons in the physical realm but it goes against the flow of my natural cycles. Winter had come and my soul has been sleeping, though a very restless sleep. Winter is often a time for rest and inner reflection and I have fought it the entire time. This is supposed to be a time of dreams and solitude, yet it has been nothing more then a nightmare. I asked myself, what was my dream? What is it my heart truly desires? I saw myself on the top of a mountain overlooking a chain of mountains and valleys that are filled with beautiful green trees. This place was literally like a dream. There was peace, solitude, hope. There was beauty, connection and in the place, heaven felt so near. It felt like heaven and earth was one place. I've always longed for this places and places like it. In this place, the veils are open and there is no separation between them. It truly is a Mystic's Dream.
     The reality, this reality that I am in now is cold and cruel. It is filled with grief, hopelessness and despair. It has turned me into stone. I've been trying to turn what I envision in my heart and bring it this plane of exsistance, but I have failed so many times that I have given up. Yet that stirring in my heart won't let me because in the depths of my core, I know that I have to keep going and moving forward. I've become very negative but it's not who I am. It's time to awaken from my slumber and live as I know I should. I can't be ruled by what I see by my physical eyes for I become blinded by what I know in my core to be true. It's time, I know it's time, I feel it stirring. It's time to live what I know, what I feel. To reflect that which within outward and to really make the changes I desire. I came here for a specific reason, and THAT is what I need to refocus my attention on. The material things can also be manifested for what we need, but this stirring has nothing to do with building a business or joining some special cause. It's not even about connecting with power or developing my abilities, nor is it about discovering who or what I am, for my soul already knows all these things. It's about fulfilling my mission, doing what I came here to do and that is to travel to the depths and to live what is already within, reflecting that to the world so others may also find their Avalon. To see beyond the veil and to live according to their true selves. Since we all must walk our own sacred path, I can never change the world, for my world is not your world, but to show them how to tap into their world and bring it here.
        I have no illusions that we will ever have complete peace or harmony on this planet by trying to get everyone on the same page. I have never had a desire to do this because though we are all in this together, we are all not here. Within this world are billions of other worlds, each one unique to only ourselves. When all try to walk in the same world, we lose sight of who we are and we disrupt the grand design. The idea is to not all live in one world but to bring our worlds to this world and share those worlds with one another. For one, their world may be filled with loss, grief, utter hell and darkness, where another may be filled with love and laughter.  One person's darkness allows another's light to shine more brightly. And one's light forges shadows within that light, creating darkness. In this, both worlds join and creates balance.
         

Transition Spell

As summer ends
a new season begins
Future, present and past
As the wheel turns, Lord, shine your light upon our path
The time of harvest has come again
a time of new begins within
a home we seek to start anew
one filled with laughter and love and divine peace
one with good neighbors, friends and green trees.
We prefer one with a fireplace to keep us warm on long cold winter nights
but within the price range within our site.
Help us get in with ease and no grief
May it provide all that we need.
All negativity come to hinder us, I now sever
Angels come, assist us so we may succeed  in this endevour.
We are protecte and we are blessed
Heaven Come! Assist us on our quest. 

2 Brothers

I had two dreams last light. The first one was two teen brothers that were neighbors of mine.  It was nighttime and the younger brother was driving a go-cart that went into the street into oncoming traffic. The older brother ran out to save his younger brother from getting hit by an SUV that was coming. Next thing I knew all three of us were in the front yard and I asked the younger brother if he was ok. That's when I realized they were both ghosts. The younger brother was very quiet and kind of in his own world. The older brother looked at me and said " He doesn't know he is dead". The second one, they were both there again, but was told the younger one was my son. Then I awoke. Later that morning,my husband told me that he also had a dream of two teenage brothers, the older one was trying to help the younger escape a warehouse that had a deadly obstacle course that not many people finished alive.

The theme was the same as mine, older brother trying to help younger brother. To be honest, though this isn't the first time for them to come to both of us, something feels off about this one. There feels to be a darker energy around the entire situation. It's strange how they were able to get past my protective shield, and then all the energy going back and forth in our dreams. It feel's off somehow, something not quite right about it all.

This isn't the first time I've had spirit dreams, but they usually don't come when I place a protection around me before bed. I'm not really sure of the reason. Especially since the theme was the same, but the dreams are inconsistent and there was no desperation or urgancy which to me is another red flag. I did get a warning in the cards about this one and so I shall heed it.

Sometimes when your intuition speaks, it's best to walk away. Things aren't always as they seem, and the subtle shifts of energy I feel around situations like these tell me someone or something is hiding behind this. We are not always told the reasons why, but I learned a long time ago, some battles are best left alone. I have no doubt the brothers are human, at least the older one, but something else is there, hidden in the shadows, I can see it and feel it. I'm going to have to let this one go until I get more answers.

Visions

Sometimes we have day's where everything seems blocked, but just as one area seems blocked, a blessing comes in an area we don't expect. I had a vision a couple of days ago. I thought about a movie called " The Bridge to Taribithia", specifically the scene in the movie where it showed a tree covered river that has swelled during the recent rain.In the movie, the young girl was trying to cross the river and drowned. In my vision, I saw the swollen river, but it was not the girl that drowned, it was the boy. I knew this was a premonition.  It's usually how visions come to me.
This morning I logged onto the internet and I saw him. The boy and the article. The vision finally made sense. He came to me today, in spirit. He was mostly worried about his family, his mother. He wasn't about to leave her. He didn't want to cross over yet, but wanted me to hel her. I sent a rayer, some energy and asked for a host of angels to be with them. I was worried about him staying behind. Guilt has a way of turning a soul into a lost one very quickly. But I know he will stay in the light with his family and he will return when he is ready to go.
I've had to learn that sometimes, we are not meant to intervene in the situation, especially for mediums, it's more of a cosmic head's up that a spirit will be coming soon for help. It's hard, but I couldn't think of any better way then to help those souls.

New Beginnings

I've decided it's high time to start making some changes in my life. Time to get back to my roots. I was thinking about it today, kind of taking a break. I feel stuck. I keep reading all this stuff on the internet about thinking positive and co-creating, ect but this really isn't what I or my family envisioned. I'm depressed. We all are I think. progress is so slow that I don't even see it anymore. It almost feels like a curse. I know I need to do something, but not sure what. I feel lost, unmotivated. It feels like no matter how hard I try, things just get all messed u. I know it could be worse, but I have lost my faith in humanity, in God. I no longer hear that voice inside and I am no longer connected to anything.
   I decided today that instead of looking for a human teacher, I go back and ask the spirits. They are whom I have learned from in the past. Very little did I ever learn from a book, I was always guided by some unseen force. I miss that. I started looking for answers through other people, yet it's time to go back and simply learn from spirit. I know that I must take another crash course on stillness. My head has gotten so cluttered with day to day stuff, it no longer has any room for anything else.
   I keep feeling drawn to do but when the time comes, I simply have no motivation to do it. I know, but I don't feel it. I know that mentally I am blocked because my brain thinks to much. It's almost like a sub-conscious thing now. I need to make chances yet I'm afraid of things blowing up in my face and making things worse. It feels like a brick wall that I keep running into.
    I did some research on an uncrossing ritual. I don't have the money for the supplies I need for it, though I may have to improvise.  I'm not really sure where it came from. Many different sources I am sure. They say it's important to know the root, but I'm not really sure I can pin-point the root. I'm not really sure I want to delve that deep, I don't think I have the strength to deal with it right now. I just feel like my personal power has been stripped away. Instead of doing an uncrossing spell, maybe I can do the rising dawn of hope spell. Your suppossed to do it at sunrise but I would rather it be done at night and then hopefully see the results at sunrise. Or maybe the banish the blues sell would be a good way to open myself u for the other spells. That would actually make more sense, since the the other's would bring in opportunities that I would most likely either not see or just ass up anyway's because of this sadness.
As darkness falls upon the night
I carry with me this tiny light
(light the candle)
May it guide me on my way
beyond the shadows and the rain.
May I see my path before me
with focus and clarity
May the flame rekindle the passion within
so once again I may win
Enveloped in divine love and filled with precious light
Grant me courage to guide me through the night.

WOW! I didn't even cast it yet and I am already feeling the effects of it.
After I got to the last part, The sadness started to disappear and I felt a very strong strength. My path may not be clear, but knowing what I am capable of doing really helps. I had no intention on going into mediation and though it was short, it was quite powerful.