Signs

It's been a really busy week at work and with  my days off preparing and celebrating Thanksgiving, and black Friday starting on the actual Thanksgiving, it's no wonder I had the dream I had last night. When I went to bed, I began to dream of work, which I always do, but then it started changing and I dreamt of doing readings. Most of the dream was vague and random until I was standing in a room and I felt a presence. I kept saying it was a man with dark hair and wearing green. I must have said it like three times. I didn't like the feel of the entity, negative, but not in a lost soul way.  It was hiding and I don't really deal with spirits that try to  hide The others in the room looked a little skeptical until the cat started hissing and growling. I immediately banished it, and it left and the dream became vague again. 

It's been awhile since I've had a spirit dream. I don't really know what he wanted, I just know it wasn't to be crossed over. The feeling I have now feels like a an entity that was passing through. I'm been thinking alot lately, especially on a more sub-conscious level about needing to start practicing again. I feel so out of the touch with the psychic world. I know it's my job. I took a four day weekend a few months ago and after day three, I started feeling so grounded and clear. But then I had to work 10 days straight afterwards and it put me back right where I am now. I have been looking for another job, but most of them, I will be taking a pay cut and I can't afford to do that. I can't even afford the job I have now. It's like a never ending cycle.

My dream was the third of three signs that I need a change. The second sign came two days ago when I was cooking. It was nice because the house was so peaceful and calm. The kids were happy, everyone was happy at that moment. I looked out the kitchen and three doves landed in our back yard. Sometimes we get birds that come in looking for food and quickly leave, but this one struck me as odd because they were walking in a row and then stopped and look right at me. They lingered for awhile until my husband opened the back door to feed them some bread, but they took off and that was the last I saw off them.

The first sign was about a week ago and there was a humming bird in the back yard. Now keep in mind, our backyard is all gravel and we have no plants, trees or grass back there. I was sitting in our bedroom with the window open and a hummingbird came right up and looked through the window in front of me. I stayed there for about a minute and then flew off. It was strange, and enough to grab my attention for a short time, but I have a hard time reading birds. It's funny because I am the most connected to them, and I know they come to bring a message, but I don't know what the message if. I try to use the symbols for them on-line but they just don't fit.I'm now hearing the song "The Voice" by the Celtic Women. I know I'm being called to make some changes and I have been asking for direction and guidance but I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I think I'll try to pull a couple of cards now that it is quiet for a moment.

I asked for Angelic assistance and all 4 cards flew out at me.

Ice Queen, it's where I am now, dormant and frozen in the moment.

High Lord of Gratitude and Service- Because of my dormant state I have lost my passion to serve.

Gaia's Graden- this one is easy, it's talking about my job, which is keeping me in my dormant state. I stay because of the money, though the job holds no more joy for me. It weighs on me so heavy, it's blocking me and keeping me in my present state.

Spirit Whisperer- this is who i am, who I desire to be again, more in touch. I hear the call, but to much stress from work, I stay dormant. My soul desires to flourish back into it's natural state, but yet I am frozen in this current state.

The Eagle King- Angelic Help is the thing that stuck out at me. Not just asking but trusting. And since the interpretation of the cards came as quickly as a glance, this is yet another sign to ask for help. The birds are a symbol of the heavens and higher realms. They know what I struggle with and are telling me to ask and to trust, it's the whole free-will thing :)

So this will be my focus for the next couple of days, asking for help and blind faith.