I've been feeling the stir within. I always feel so tired yet my souls yearns to awake. It's been quite busy lately so my energies have been geared towards "reality". I'm not really keen on my reality right now. It's difficult to see beyond the veil. I see the desert that surrounds me, and though I find beauty in the sunsets and at night, I realize that with our financial situation, it's almost impossible to do what it is my heart truly desires, and that's to simply be in nature. It's to hot, it's to cold, it's to dead, to brown, it costs to much money. Everything in life that can be enjoyed costs money. I really don't see where people have the right to claim something that was here billions of years ago, but that's another blog. I feel like I'm sleeping and my soul longs to be awake. My soul has been stirring for quite some time, but today it is undeniably strong.
I took some time this morning and pulled some cards from my Wisdom of the Hidden Realms deck and pulled the cycle of seasons card. I reflected on it for a short time and I realized that I have been trying to connect with the seasons in the physical realm but it goes against the flow of my natural cycles. Winter had come and my soul has been sleeping, though a very restless sleep. Winter is often a time for rest and inner reflection and I have fought it the entire time. This is supposed to be a time of dreams and solitude, yet it has been nothing more then a nightmare. I asked myself, what was my dream? What is it my heart truly desires? I saw myself on the top of a mountain overlooking a chain of mountains and valleys that are filled with beautiful green trees. This place was literally like a dream. There was peace, solitude, hope. There was beauty, connection and in the place, heaven felt so near. It felt like heaven and earth was one place. I've always longed for this places and places like it. In this place, the veils are open and there is no separation between them. It truly is a Mystic's Dream.
The reality, this reality that I am in now is cold and cruel. It is filled with grief, hopelessness and despair. It has turned me into stone. I've been trying to turn what I envision in my heart and bring it this plane of exsistance, but I have failed so many times that I have given up. Yet that stirring in my heart won't let me because in the depths of my core, I know that I have to keep going and moving forward. I've become very negative but it's not who I am. It's time to awaken from my slumber and live as I know I should. I can't be ruled by what I see by my physical eyes for I become blinded by what I know in my core to be true. It's time, I know it's time, I feel it stirring. It's time to live what I know, what I feel. To reflect that which within outward and to really make the changes I desire. I came here for a specific reason, and THAT is what I need to refocus my attention on. The material things can also be manifested for what we need, but this stirring has nothing to do with building a business or joining some special cause. It's not even about connecting with power or developing my abilities, nor is it about discovering who or what I am, for my soul already knows all these things. It's about fulfilling my mission, doing what I came here to do and that is to travel to the depths and to live what is already within, reflecting that to the world so others may also find their Avalon. To see beyond the veil and to live according to their true selves. Since we all must walk our own sacred path, I can never change the world, for my world is not your world, but to show them how to tap into their world and bring it here.
I have no illusions that we will ever have complete peace or harmony on this planet by trying to get everyone on the same page. I have never had a desire to do this because though we are all in this together, we are all not here. Within this world are billions of other worlds, each one unique to only ourselves. When all try to walk in the same world, we lose sight of who we are and we disrupt the grand design. The idea is to not all live in one world but to bring our worlds to this world and share those worlds with one another. For one, their world may be filled with loss, grief, utter hell and darkness, where another may be filled with love and laughter. One person's darkness allows another's light to shine more brightly. And one's light forges shadows within that light, creating darkness. In this, both worlds join and creates balance.
I took some time this morning and pulled some cards from my Wisdom of the Hidden Realms deck and pulled the cycle of seasons card. I reflected on it for a short time and I realized that I have been trying to connect with the seasons in the physical realm but it goes against the flow of my natural cycles. Winter had come and my soul has been sleeping, though a very restless sleep. Winter is often a time for rest and inner reflection and I have fought it the entire time. This is supposed to be a time of dreams and solitude, yet it has been nothing more then a nightmare. I asked myself, what was my dream? What is it my heart truly desires? I saw myself on the top of a mountain overlooking a chain of mountains and valleys that are filled with beautiful green trees. This place was literally like a dream. There was peace, solitude, hope. There was beauty, connection and in the place, heaven felt so near. It felt like heaven and earth was one place. I've always longed for this places and places like it. In this place, the veils are open and there is no separation between them. It truly is a Mystic's Dream.
The reality, this reality that I am in now is cold and cruel. It is filled with grief, hopelessness and despair. It has turned me into stone. I've been trying to turn what I envision in my heart and bring it this plane of exsistance, but I have failed so many times that I have given up. Yet that stirring in my heart won't let me because in the depths of my core, I know that I have to keep going and moving forward. I've become very negative but it's not who I am. It's time to awaken from my slumber and live as I know I should. I can't be ruled by what I see by my physical eyes for I become blinded by what I know in my core to be true. It's time, I know it's time, I feel it stirring. It's time to live what I know, what I feel. To reflect that which within outward and to really make the changes I desire. I came here for a specific reason, and THAT is what I need to refocus my attention on. The material things can also be manifested for what we need, but this stirring has nothing to do with building a business or joining some special cause. It's not even about connecting with power or developing my abilities, nor is it about discovering who or what I am, for my soul already knows all these things. It's about fulfilling my mission, doing what I came here to do and that is to travel to the depths and to live what is already within, reflecting that to the world so others may also find their Avalon. To see beyond the veil and to live according to their true selves. Since we all must walk our own sacred path, I can never change the world, for my world is not your world, but to show them how to tap into their world and bring it here.
I have no illusions that we will ever have complete peace or harmony on this planet by trying to get everyone on the same page. I have never had a desire to do this because though we are all in this together, we are all not here. Within this world are billions of other worlds, each one unique to only ourselves. When all try to walk in the same world, we lose sight of who we are and we disrupt the grand design. The idea is to not all live in one world but to bring our worlds to this world and share those worlds with one another. For one, their world may be filled with loss, grief, utter hell and darkness, where another may be filled with love and laughter. One person's darkness allows another's light to shine more brightly. And one's light forges shadows within that light, creating darkness. In this, both worlds join and creates balance.
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