I was reading the news on yahoo, something I have been doing alot lately, and almost everything on there is so negative. So I decided to hide away in my web-site, something us cancer's do often, and this mystical energy came over me, and I realized something. As I was looking at the picture of the woman over looking the water and mountains, and I felt that pull once again. You know that feeling, like something just grabs you and you know that this is where you belong. This space that I created with my own energy, my own desire, my own blood, sweat and tears, the place is where I belong because I created it. I created it with love, dedication and imagination and I weaved it with mystical energy. I realized how grounded and peaceful I feel in this realm. I used to spend alot of time in this realm, so much so that the things around me would just fade away. In this realm I was happy. In this realm I am able to tap into what I can't in the normal physical realm, and this is hope, peace and knowledge.
It's like stepping out of a realm of sadness and dispair to a realm that is so clear. In this realm all things are possible. I can feel everything, but most important, this is where I have found my soul. Everything, is so clear. And this is what I wanted to bring to the world.
I want to show that there is more then just what we see day to day. That mystical energy is so alive today. I just forgot how much of a part of my life it was and how I walked away from it. When I started on this journey, I wanted to know what that feeling was that I felt as a child. I knew something more, but I wanted to know what it was, so I studiesdand researched. I broke everything down so I could understand it. But then I needed to know where my life fit into the mix. It's obviously something greater then myself, but what made my life so important? Everything is connected and on one hand I felt privileged to be a part of it. Yet, there was something inside that felt that since it was so great and so ancient, what I was able to bring to it couldn't possibly mean much if anything. I mean, how many other Mediums are out there that work with the lost souls? How many other psychics can connect with the Angels and give messages? How many can project and manipulate energy for a greater cause? What makes me so special? My answer...nothing. So my journey began my downward spiral. It's all borrowed power and I needed to know where my power ended and theirs began. It's been lonely, confusing and dark. I feel like I have been lost for years. Searching, seeking answers. At some point I no longer cared about where or what it was, I just wanted it back. From time to time, I would feel the pull and though I wanted it, I didn't know how to get back what I once lost it.
I always used to say it's connection, and it is connection, but the connection I once had was a constant flow. I was part of this realm, but not really in this realm. I was able to tap into it without even thinking about it. There was no spending 10 minutes to raise the energy, it was there at my disposal. Today I realized that it's not theirs and mine, I am this energy and this energy is me. There is no separation, we are one. I am one with everything I do, everything I connect with. There is no separation between this realm and that if I choose to embrace both. Which is how it is meant to be. I know where I am at in this life, in this earthly realm is not where I am supposed to be. My husband also knows this to. In fact, he see's it more clearly then I do.
I used to dream. Today I feel those dreams beginning to awaken from deep within. I not only know where I am supposed to be, but more important, I feel it.
It's like stepping out of a realm of sadness and dispair to a realm that is so clear. In this realm all things are possible. I can feel everything, but most important, this is where I have found my soul. Everything, is so clear. And this is what I wanted to bring to the world.
I want to show that there is more then just what we see day to day. That mystical energy is so alive today. I just forgot how much of a part of my life it was and how I walked away from it. When I started on this journey, I wanted to know what that feeling was that I felt as a child. I knew something more, but I wanted to know what it was, so I studiesdand researched. I broke everything down so I could understand it. But then I needed to know where my life fit into the mix. It's obviously something greater then myself, but what made my life so important? Everything is connected and on one hand I felt privileged to be a part of it. Yet, there was something inside that felt that since it was so great and so ancient, what I was able to bring to it couldn't possibly mean much if anything. I mean, how many other Mediums are out there that work with the lost souls? How many other psychics can connect with the Angels and give messages? How many can project and manipulate energy for a greater cause? What makes me so special? My answer...nothing. So my journey began my downward spiral. It's all borrowed power and I needed to know where my power ended and theirs began. It's been lonely, confusing and dark. I feel like I have been lost for years. Searching, seeking answers. At some point I no longer cared about where or what it was, I just wanted it back. From time to time, I would feel the pull and though I wanted it, I didn't know how to get back what I once lost it.
I always used to say it's connection, and it is connection, but the connection I once had was a constant flow. I was part of this realm, but not really in this realm. I was able to tap into it without even thinking about it. There was no spending 10 minutes to raise the energy, it was there at my disposal. Today I realized that it's not theirs and mine, I am this energy and this energy is me. There is no separation, we are one. I am one with everything I do, everything I connect with. There is no separation between this realm and that if I choose to embrace both. Which is how it is meant to be. I know where I am at in this life, in this earthly realm is not where I am supposed to be. My husband also knows this to. In fact, he see's it more clearly then I do.
I used to dream. Today I feel those dreams beginning to awaken from deep within. I not only know where I am supposed to be, but more important, I feel it.
