I was working on my web-site today. I went to my Blog Talk Radio Show and I heard the Theme Song, In The Middle, and then some of an archived show. It felt so good, so right. My life now, it doesn't feel right. I've decided recently to go back to work online and to start with Blog Talk again. My job right now, however is so emotionally and mentally exhausting. I had such a hard time letting gone and trusting God, trusting the Angels. Faith, what feels like a lifetime ago, used to come so natural. I've been blocked for some time and I don't really know how to unblock it. No amount of cleansing, clearing, remembering, will change that. I know this. There is something within that changed and I know things needs to change again, within. I know I need to let go and just allow the Angels to take over for awhile.
There has been alot of negativity coming through lately. This past year has been a real struggle, both financially, but everything, it feels like I had to fight for everything. Fighting for a job that I no longer feel joy and pride over, fighting with people to keep the job I hate so much. None of it makes any sense to me. My advice to someone else would be, what does your inner voice say? Where does your intuition guide you towards?
So Now I ask myself this question? My inner voice tells me that it is ridiculous to fight so hard for a job, and to let go of the control over the job and hand it over to the Angels to heal. It's a job. It's meant to put a roof over our heads and food in our mouths, but it used to be more source of pride. I used to feel good about a job well done, but now it feels like a job well done doesn't appease those who don't want me to succeed. This job has torn me down. My days off our my refuge, a needed break from the insanity that has encompassed around this job. But each day that I go back, there is little peace, because I know what is to come. It's like having two lives. One I could have and have dreamed about, and one I can't stand. There is no longer any balance, only despair. This isn't right, I know it's not right. I know this isn't where I belong and I know this chapter of my life is ending.
I don't know where my intuition guides me towards, but I do know where my heart guides me to. The problem is that my job takes so much out of me, I have no strength left to walk both paths. It's like two opposites that don't mesh. I don't think they are supposed to. I need the money to support my family, yet there is little money to fulfill my duties in this area. It's worth it to survive, but my desire is not to just survive, it's to live.
I need strength to fight, but I think I am fighting the wrong battle. The battle I fight now feels to pointless. I am angry, but I am not channeling it into something beneficial. This whole thing consumes me. I'm battling petty people who hold no real significance to me in my life, I hold none in there's. It's all to feed their ego's, which to me is pointless.
So what does my heart tell me to do? It tell me if something feels this wrong, then it's not right. So what are you going to do to change it? I can't change my job right now, but I can hand over the stresses to ArchAngel Michael. Considering I believe some of this is more supernatural, then it will help to have an army of powerful ArchAngels to help me fight this aspect of my life. Ask ArchAngel Gabrielle to help heal the situation to help the love flow through.
They ask what do I want to do with my life. I want to start working towards my purpose. They ask what my purpose is. My answer is I'm not really sure, but I do know that my Blog Talk Radio show felt so right. So helping people connect to something greater, something that brings hope, and connect them to the one's who bring that. I feel peace. I feel love. I feel healing. I'm not here to fight against hope, I fight for it. And things that draw me away from that, only brings to me where I am now.
I am a mother and wife and want to provide everything my family needs. I want to be a minister. As a Medium, I want to help the souls entrusted to me. As a human, I want to help those living who are entrusted to me. I want to be able to do this as my job.
Something has got to give. I can't really the road ahead, so at this moment, I am hoping the Angels will guide me. I am also hoping that opportunites will open.
I'm at a crossroads right now and I am being asked to choose.
I choose the path hope. I choose the path I feel I should be on and I trust that the Divine will provide the finances we need to live. I'm choosing to let go of my stresses at my job and entrust that they will take care of this aspect until I am able to fully move down the path I am meant to be on.
At this moment, I feel the storm passing and I feel confident knowing that I am looked after. I feel like my faith is being restored. I know where I am supposed to be. I know the path I am supposed to be on. It's time to let go, and I am willing to do that so I can transition.
Thank You Blessed Beings From Above!
There has been alot of negativity coming through lately. This past year has been a real struggle, both financially, but everything, it feels like I had to fight for everything. Fighting for a job that I no longer feel joy and pride over, fighting with people to keep the job I hate so much. None of it makes any sense to me. My advice to someone else would be, what does your inner voice say? Where does your intuition guide you towards?
So Now I ask myself this question? My inner voice tells me that it is ridiculous to fight so hard for a job, and to let go of the control over the job and hand it over to the Angels to heal. It's a job. It's meant to put a roof over our heads and food in our mouths, but it used to be more source of pride. I used to feel good about a job well done, but now it feels like a job well done doesn't appease those who don't want me to succeed. This job has torn me down. My days off our my refuge, a needed break from the insanity that has encompassed around this job. But each day that I go back, there is little peace, because I know what is to come. It's like having two lives. One I could have and have dreamed about, and one I can't stand. There is no longer any balance, only despair. This isn't right, I know it's not right. I know this isn't where I belong and I know this chapter of my life is ending.
I don't know where my intuition guides me towards, but I do know where my heart guides me to. The problem is that my job takes so much out of me, I have no strength left to walk both paths. It's like two opposites that don't mesh. I don't think they are supposed to. I need the money to support my family, yet there is little money to fulfill my duties in this area. It's worth it to survive, but my desire is not to just survive, it's to live.
I need strength to fight, but I think I am fighting the wrong battle. The battle I fight now feels to pointless. I am angry, but I am not channeling it into something beneficial. This whole thing consumes me. I'm battling petty people who hold no real significance to me in my life, I hold none in there's. It's all to feed their ego's, which to me is pointless.
So what does my heart tell me to do? It tell me if something feels this wrong, then it's not right. So what are you going to do to change it? I can't change my job right now, but I can hand over the stresses to ArchAngel Michael. Considering I believe some of this is more supernatural, then it will help to have an army of powerful ArchAngels to help me fight this aspect of my life. Ask ArchAngel Gabrielle to help heal the situation to help the love flow through.
They ask what do I want to do with my life. I want to start working towards my purpose. They ask what my purpose is. My answer is I'm not really sure, but I do know that my Blog Talk Radio show felt so right. So helping people connect to something greater, something that brings hope, and connect them to the one's who bring that. I feel peace. I feel love. I feel healing. I'm not here to fight against hope, I fight for it. And things that draw me away from that, only brings to me where I am now.
I am a mother and wife and want to provide everything my family needs. I want to be a minister. As a Medium, I want to help the souls entrusted to me. As a human, I want to help those living who are entrusted to me. I want to be able to do this as my job.
Something has got to give. I can't really the road ahead, so at this moment, I am hoping the Angels will guide me. I am also hoping that opportunites will open.
I'm at a crossroads right now and I am being asked to choose.
I choose the path hope. I choose the path I feel I should be on and I trust that the Divine will provide the finances we need to live. I'm choosing to let go of my stresses at my job and entrust that they will take care of this aspect until I am able to fully move down the path I am meant to be on.
At this moment, I feel the storm passing and I feel confident knowing that I am looked after. I feel like my faith is being restored. I know where I am supposed to be. I know the path I am supposed to be on. It's time to let go, and I am willing to do that so I can transition.
Thank You Blessed Beings From Above!
