I've decided it's high time to start making some changes in my life. Time to get back to my roots. I was thinking about it today, kind of taking a break. I feel stuck. I keep reading all this stuff on the internet about thinking positive and co-creating, ect but this really isn't what I or my family envisioned. I'm depressed. We all are I think. progress is so slow that I don't even see it anymore. It almost feels like a curse. I know I need to do something, but not sure what. I feel lost, unmotivated. It feels like no matter how hard I try, things just get all messed u. I know it could be worse, but I have lost my faith in humanity, in God. I no longer hear that voice inside and I am no longer connected to anything.
I decided today that instead of looking for a human teacher, I go back and ask the spirits. They are whom I have learned from in the past. Very little did I ever learn from a book, I was always guided by some unseen force. I miss that. I started looking for answers through other people, yet it's time to go back and simply learn from spirit. I know that I must take another crash course on stillness. My head has gotten so cluttered with day to day stuff, it no longer has any room for anything else.
I keep feeling drawn to do but when the time comes, I simply have no motivation to do it. I know, but I don't feel it. I know that mentally I am blocked because my brain thinks to much. It's almost like a sub-conscious thing now. I need to make chances yet I'm afraid of things blowing up in my face and making things worse. It feels like a brick wall that I keep running into.
I did some research on an uncrossing ritual. I don't have the money for the supplies I need for it, though I may have to improvise. I'm not really sure where it came from. Many different sources I am sure. They say it's important to know the root, but I'm not really sure I can pin-point the root. I'm not really sure I want to delve that deep, I don't think I have the strength to deal with it right now. I just feel like my personal power has been stripped away. Instead of doing an uncrossing spell, maybe I can do the rising dawn of hope spell. Your suppossed to do it at sunrise but I would rather it be done at night and then hopefully see the results at sunrise. Or maybe the banish the blues sell would be a good way to open myself u for the other spells. That would actually make more sense, since the the other's would bring in opportunities that I would most likely either not see or just ass up anyway's because of this sadness.
As darkness falls upon the night
I carry with me this tiny light
(light the candle)
May it guide me on my way
beyond the shadows and the rain.
May I see my path before me
with focus and clarity
May the flame rekindle the passion within
so once again I may win
Enveloped in divine love and filled with precious light
Grant me courage to guide me through the night.
WOW! I didn't even cast it yet and I am already feeling the effects of it.
After I got to the last part, The sadness started to disappear and I felt a very strong strength. My path may not be clear, but knowing what I am capable of doing really helps. I had no intention on going into mediation and though it was short, it was quite powerful.
I decided today that instead of looking for a human teacher, I go back and ask the spirits. They are whom I have learned from in the past. Very little did I ever learn from a book, I was always guided by some unseen force. I miss that. I started looking for answers through other people, yet it's time to go back and simply learn from spirit. I know that I must take another crash course on stillness. My head has gotten so cluttered with day to day stuff, it no longer has any room for anything else.
I keep feeling drawn to do but when the time comes, I simply have no motivation to do it. I know, but I don't feel it. I know that mentally I am blocked because my brain thinks to much. It's almost like a sub-conscious thing now. I need to make chances yet I'm afraid of things blowing up in my face and making things worse. It feels like a brick wall that I keep running into.
I did some research on an uncrossing ritual. I don't have the money for the supplies I need for it, though I may have to improvise. I'm not really sure where it came from. Many different sources I am sure. They say it's important to know the root, but I'm not really sure I can pin-point the root. I'm not really sure I want to delve that deep, I don't think I have the strength to deal with it right now. I just feel like my personal power has been stripped away. Instead of doing an uncrossing spell, maybe I can do the rising dawn of hope spell. Your suppossed to do it at sunrise but I would rather it be done at night and then hopefully see the results at sunrise. Or maybe the banish the blues sell would be a good way to open myself u for the other spells. That would actually make more sense, since the the other's would bring in opportunities that I would most likely either not see or just ass up anyway's because of this sadness.
As darkness falls upon the night
I carry with me this tiny light
(light the candle)
May it guide me on my way
beyond the shadows and the rain.
May I see my path before me
with focus and clarity
May the flame rekindle the passion within
so once again I may win
Enveloped in divine love and filled with precious light
Grant me courage to guide me through the night.
WOW! I didn't even cast it yet and I am already feeling the effects of it.
After I got to the last part, The sadness started to disappear and I felt a very strong strength. My path may not be clear, but knowing what I am capable of doing really helps. I had no intention on going into mediation and though it was short, it was quite powerful.
